Sorry I haven't written in awhile. It seems like life has been so busy lately. When I am not busy I am so tired and sore to do much. I am excited and terrified to say that I only have ten days left until I am going to be induced and will meet my baby. Things are still going well. I had two doctors appointments today. The baby was doing good and actually let us see part of his/her face today, which is more than we usually see. I have a lot of good foot pictures though. This one likes to snuggle up by my right hip and hide. My fluid level was at a 13 and the heart beat was around 154. That was all done at my high risk doctor's office. I will go back there one more time next Monday for one final growth scan to see how big the baby is. A few weeks ago the baby was four and a half pounds. So I'm guessing he/she will be close to six next Monday, or at least that is what I am hoping for.
I have also been seeing my regular OB Dr. Byington twice a week for a few weeks now. The nurses there are like family and Olivia knows them all by name. She loves to go with me and hold my hand. I have been having non stress tests along with exams and shots. The non stress tests are good I get to lay and listen to the heart beat and record the babies movements. It helps me to feel reassured that everything is going good. It's killer on my back though. But I will take any pain with this pregnancy as long as I get to bring this baby home in my arms. This past Friday I was dilated to 2 cm already. My doctor said don't do anything stupid and stay close to home. Today he didn't check me but said he "thinks" I will make it to my induction date. I go back to see him on Friday so I will make sure he checks me again.
I have had my phone interview with the hospital and put in my special requests. Such as I do not want to be in room 452, which is where Asher was born. They were super nice about it and said they will put me on a completely different hall way. I also requested to have the same nurse help to deliver this baby that delivered Asher. I want her there for this joy after all the heartache we have been through. Nurse Jennifer was so sweet to trade days with another nurse so she can hopefully be there. So hopefully we can hold on until 7 pm when she comes on duty. The hospital also knows how anxious I am about this whole thing and they said they will help me any way they can. I just don't know how I am going to react once I step foot on that floor.
We are getting all prepared for the baby at home. The crib is up and the sheets and clothes are washed and ready to go. The changing table is ready. We just need to get the car seat in the car. It is very strange getting this all ready. We had none of this done when Asher was coming. We packed the diaper bag and shed a few tears as we put in the going home outfit. For the going home outfit we packed for Asher was the one he was buried in. It's all bitter sweet. I am still very scared and I go through moments when I am sure that this baby is going to die too. I pray to God everyday that does not happen because I don't think I could handle it.
So far things are going good but they were with Asher too. It seems like no words of comfort people give me help. In the back of my mind I am like it was the same with Asher too. I am being watched so close though. I just have to keep taking things day by day and keep thinking positively.
I am officially on maternity leave now. My doctor wanted me to rest and really focus on the baby's movements and focus on what I am feeling. That means Olivia is home with me too. I feel like a bad mother saying this but I hope we survive our time together. I love her dearly but sometimes she makes me really frustrated. I am going to try to keep my cool. We have special plans for learning time and art and cooking projects. I hope we don't drive each other crazy. We have the same attitude and personality already so we butt heads sometimes. Which is crazy to say about a 3 year old. I try to reason with her and Chris is always like you are wasting your breath she is 3. We are going to work on our manners and not talking back. She is really into saying "that's not fair" so that will have to leave the house too. We will get through it. She is going to be a great big sister and she is super excited to have the baby come home with us.
Please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we are coming to a close on this pregnancy and beginning out new journey. It has been a long 35 weeks so far, but I never thought I would make it this far. The prayers are appreciated and please really pray for us February 5th as I'm sure to be really crazy that day and also as I am induced on February 6th. I will try to post updates as soon as I can, but I will probably keep most of the updates off Facebook in case something were to go wrong.
10 days seems like so far away....
