So today Olivia shook me to my core. And left me with more questions than answers. Can an angel really communicate with us? Does the innocence of a child cause them to see things we can't? Does my 2 year really understand what happened? Does Olivia know how profound she is for her age? Does she realize that what she said to me this morning might just change everything for me? Now I believe in angels and I would consider myself faithful. Since Asher's death I have been reading about heaven and trying to deicde what it would be like for Asher up there. Now we talk to Olivia about Asher quite a bit. We just tell her Asher is with Jesus in heaven and that he is an angel. But I don't remember talking to her about him yesterday.
Yesterday was like any other day for Olivia, nothing unusual happened to her that I know of. She slept all night last night, didn't hear a peep out of her until 5:45. Now that is unlike her because I usually have to get up and cover her up when she wakes up in the night. So I don't know if she slept really soundly or what. But this morning she was in a great mood. I got her dressed and she was watching cartoons in the chair. I had just got done washing my face and stuff in the bathroom and I was starting to get dressed.
Olivia comes running into the bedroom. "Mommy" she said, "I miss Asher." (Now I do tell her I miss Asher a lot when she can see that I am sad.) And I bent down and I said, "Mommy misses Asher too." Then hugging me super tight she said, "Mommy the angel Asher said to be brave." And then she let go of me and ran off to the living room. Now I was rocked to the core, still am. I just stood there and cried. Had Asher really talked to Olivia? Did she really see him? About ten minutes later I was putting on her shoes and I wanted to know more. I simply asked, "Olivia did you talk to Asher." And she said, "ya and I gave him a kiss." And that was it. I really hope she got to meet her brother. That is one of the biggest regrets I have, not letting Olivia hold her brother. I just didn't know how much she could take. She seen him at the funeral and she has pictures of him in her room.
How much does a two year old really know? Does she know more than I think she does? Every night when I pray and talk to Asher I simply ask him to give me some sort of sign that he is thinking of me. Maybe this was it. I don't know but I am going to hold on to this. And I think Olivia, Chris, and I should follow Asher's words to be brave.
Jen,
ReplyDeleteI firmly believe that children are able to talk to angels and that Asher did indeed come to visit his big sister. She may know more (lots more) than what she is telling you but I would ask broad questions about what she saw and heard. Trust and know that this is Asher's way of letting you know how much he loves you.
I believe that the young, innocent kids "see" things that we don't. Livia talked with Grandpa Lynn after he passed away. He sung her the alphabet at night before she went to sleep for some time. She talked about it so nonchalantly. Amazing!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you!
Kids are so much more intelligent than adults. They are truly genuine and sincere too. I firmly believe that Angel Asher has sent those strong words of bravery to Olivia to share with you and Chris. How could Olivia just make that up? She couldn't! That's why I am so happy for you...it is REAL Jen! I know Olivia speaks way above average for her age, but she also used the word "brave" in a context of meaning. Do you ever say "brave" around her? That's not a very common everyday word. Thinking about what you told me tonight and then processing it over myself just reinforces that yes, Asher has communicated with Olivia. That is very special! Love, Lacy
ReplyDeleteThis is a wonderful story.
ReplyDeleteMy newphew barrett has said a few things like this. Each time i hear one it just strengthens my belief.
Barrett was 4 and this was about 1 month after Wyatt was born,he came over to help us rake leaves like he does every year. We walked out side opened the garage door and grabbed the rakes. I was just putting my rack into a pile of leaves infront of the garage door when he said. "Wyatt made that." I stopped. Looked at him.I choaked a bit. Then Looked down at the pile in front of me sure enough our little buddy had made a huge heart for us out of the leaves.
Hes done may things like this same as Olivia, just saying them matter of factly. Continue to share your stories Jen not only are they helping you but healing also comes in knowing that you are helping others.