The "Club"

I am part of a club that no one wants to join.  I did not choose to be a part of this club and I would rather not be in it, but I didn't get the option.  God put me in this club.  I would like to think that He has only choosen special people for this club but I am not sure.  This club is for mothers who have lost children.  The "dues" to get into the club are great, because no one wants to give up a child or in my case a baby.  I didn't even get to hear my baby cry.  If I want to go see Asher I have to go to the cemetery and I HATE that.  That shouldn't be the ways things work.  A parent should never have to bury there child.  I know when I go to heaven after I hug Asher, I'm going to ask God why he has to take little babies from this earth.  Because this club is not fun.  I guess I have no choice, I am a member for life now.